Serendipity

Serendipity 

1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

This accident is my serendipity....

When we started this adventure I was sad, angry, confused, and frustrated. I named this blog "An adventure no one would want," and I believed that. I truly thought that God had dealt us a curse. I thought that this was going to be my world, a sad and angry world. 

Then came the day I realized that this was my serendipity. This was my desirable discover that changed my entire life! This is an adventure that I wouldn't change in a million years! This is the path that The Lord has chosen for us, and so yes I will worship in this storm. 

This adventure is the adventure to fall so in love with The Lord! This adventure is the adventure to fall head over heels in love with the man of my dreams! This adventure is the opportunity to help others through our pain and sorrows! This is an adventure of a lifetime, and I am beyond blessed to call it my very own serendipity!  

But The Greatest Of These Is Love

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13 NIV)

When I was 18 I waltz my newly legal but into the tattoo parlor and sat down to get my second tattoo. I had chosen three of the most beautiful words in the English language, words that were part of the love chapter. These words were absolutely beautiful to me at the time, they reminded me of our Heavenly Father's promise to us. These words were "Faith, Hope, and Love", words that many others have tattooed on their bodies. 

Now four years later I sometimes get a glimpse of these words forever inscribed on my body and they mean so so much more. I look back over the past year of my life and realize without those three words this trial would have been unbearable. These words are how we make it through ever day. Every time I look back over the last year and begin to feel sorry for us and for our lives I am consumed with hope for the future. I know The Lord has a wonderful plan for our future and that his goal is to use this for his glory. The amount of faith we have to have to get through this is amazing, and when my faith begins to waver I know that The Lord will grant me with faith to move mountains. 

But at the end of the day the greatest of these remains, and that is love. Our love today is stronger than it has ever been, and I have God to thank for that. When you're faced with the worse you can either face it alone, or fight it together. I didn't have to choose this life, but I can't imagine leaving this life. I would much rather spend my life with faith, hope, and mostly love, rather than taking the easy road out. 

With love,

Brittany Marie 

The worst blogger ever!

So I am pretty sure I have to be one of the worst bloggers in history. The fact  that I can go months and months without typing a single word proves just how completely awful I am at the whole entire thing. Believe me though it's not that I don't have any inspiration, I am marrying a miracle in five months! (That was my way of hinting just how close we are till the big day). It's just that I don't take the time to bust out a few paragraphs, and for that I am very sorry. 

So let's just review really fast what all has happened the past few months. Kaleb is walking with a walking, yep just let that sink in. Now he doesn't walk with it at home just yet, but that will happen as soon as his straight leg brace comes in. We feel extremely blessed to be working with a therapist who truly believes that walking is something he will do. She is going above and beyond to make sure that he is walking at the wedding. Something that I honestly was beginning to accept not happening. God has been just so amazing in healing Kaleb and yet showing us that our lives in the chair are not awful. We can still do everything we want to do, it just maybe a little different. 

We just experienced one of the worst moving experiences we could have ever had! We had inquired about these apartments in late October and was told that the unit we would be living in was handicap accessible, so we didn't think any more about it. Then came moving day... It was not at all accessible, he couldn't fit into the restroom at all!!! So after two days of completely praying and stressing and praying and stressing they finally moved us into a new apartment. Oh but don't worry there was still more stress to come, like the fact that they didn't want to accept our pay stubs as proof of our income, or the fact that we had to move more than half our stuff from the seventh floor to the fourth floor. And oh did I mention Kaleb is in a wheel chair. 

Well the point behind that entire story was for me to tell you that I was truly humbled after all of the chaos. I had no other choice than to trust God with all of my heart and to know that he will provide. It it so very easy to trust him with the huge stuff, like Kaleb's miracle, and yet with the smaller things sometimes I feel as though I could solve the problem faster. Day by day I am learning that God is in control of every situation and truly wants the best for us. 

Well that was my rant for the day, 

Brittany Marie    

You Never Realize Its The Last Time

Yesterday was Kaleb's wonderful birthday, and as always birthdays bring joy and happiness along with hope for another year. This birthday brought all of those things along with a little bit of sadness. See not only did it mark another year of Kaleb's life, it also marked the one year mark since my last recreational trip to New Orleans for his birthday. 

That trip was at the time one to remember, now it is one I will hold onto for the rest of my life. That trip would be the last time Kaleb and I would ever walk hand in hand together. That trip would be the last time he gave me a piggy back ride. That trip is the trip that I picked out some life changing jewelry. I can practically tell you every detail of that entire adventure of a weekend. Some details have faded with time, and some well some were lost on bourbon street ;). But the most important ones will forever stay close to my heart. 

I guess part of the reason these memories are so very perfect are because we didn't know. We had no idea what life changing event would happen in the span of a very short month. We lived our life careless and free the way it had always been. We laughed so hard at the most stupid of things. We spent hours looking at pieces of antiques and art that believe me I would love to have. We spent an amazing evening with some of his closest friends. And the very last day I has with him pre accident was spent being a normal couple baking a pizza and watching tv. 

So I have said it several times, that these were all the last time that they would happen. And sometimes it truly feels like I will never get a piggy back ride again, but what I do get is to ride on his lap when my feet hurt. And yes I would love to be able to walk the street holding his, but I get to push him and hey that's close enough. Plus I have a god who is healing Kaleb and I know when it's his time we will walk hand in hand again. Just having to be a little patient. 

In him, 

Brittany Marie 

An Inner Strenth

1 Peter 5:10
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Oh my goodness has it been a while since I actually took the time to sit down and write, which in some ways means life is going good. So let's see what has happened in the past few months that is worth sharing.... OH YA KALEB IS WALKING! Now just to clarify he is not walking around the house or walking on his own. Kaleb is walking with assistance from both a walker and a physical therapist, but that in itself is the most incredible blessing. It is something that I was becoming comfortable with the idea that it may never happen, and then with a ton of prayer and a ton of hard work and dedication on Kaleb's side he is working towards doing it again.

Now for the record, and since this is my own blog, let me tell you the past couple of months have not been the rainbows and butterflies that you may think. They have still been filled with tears and disappointments, frustration and some not so very nice words, but most of all a whole lot of love. Our lives are still very different from the paths that we both once thought they would take. There are still things that I personally have had to do for my soon to be husband that I never thought I would have to do. There have been multiple times that all I could do was call my wonderful blessing of a momma and cry to her because to be completely honest I am tired. It is a tired that is extremely hard to explain, it is a tired that is not only emotionally brought on but physically as well.  It is the kind of tired that only God can give the rest that is needed. And our gracious God has not forsaken me in this situation. Sometimes all it takes is a good cry and a few uplifting words from my momma and Kaleb to remember that the Lord has blessed me with an amazing amount of strength. If you would of told me a year ago that this would be what my life would look like I would have told you no way. I would have never expected to grow up and mature as fast as I have. I would have told you I am not strong enough to handle something this extreme, and that I am the biggest baby in the world. I would have tried to convince you that I need to be taken care of.

Now a year later, I have more spiritual strength than I ever have. My life is on a completely different plan than I ever thought possible. I live in a city that I am not a fan of. I haven't made it home to see my family in months. I missed that balloon fiesta for the first time in 21 years. I won't be home for Christmas Adam. But all of that aside I am marrying the man of my dreams. I am living a miracle. I am watching this miracle and knowing that so many people lives are being enriched because of it.

I am living the life that God has had planned for me.

sorry for the rant

Brittany Marie :)

Consider it pure joy...

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, (James 1:2 BOOKS)

This verse is a verse that I so often turned to in a time of need, and though I turned to it often it wasn't until recently that I grasped just a glimpse of what The Lord is saying here. Looking back on the past seven months of my life I could of handled it one of two ways, I could of become very angry at The Lord and at Kaleb. I could of lived my life in a deep depression choosing to not see the joy in the little things, which in turn would of very quickly hurt Kaleb's recovery. 

Or I could, and can, handle it in a state of joy. 

I truly am so very thankful for this situation, which to some of you may sound very very odd. I am thankful that it has brought Kaleb and I closer than we would of ever been without it. 

Because of this very injury we have had to completely readapt our lives, not necessarily a bad thing, but a thing. We had to humble ourselves, Kaleb obviously physically and mentally. But for me it was a bit of both as well, lets be honest people look at us a little different, we do things a little different, and we live a little different. Our lives are no worse or better than the people next door, they are just a little different. The best part of our lives being completely turned upside down is we were able to find our own right side up. 

I can also so I am incredible thankful for this injury and the wisdom it has brought. After facing an injury like this you learn to not forget about the little things in life. I can promise you Kaleb is looking forward to simple walking down the street again, and I am looking forward to holding his hand and taking twice as many steps to keep up with him. But besides learning that we shouldn't take the little things for granted I have so much more biblical wisdom. I can truthfully sit here and tell you that this wisdom comes from The Lord. This wisdom has been a gift which I am so incredibly blessed to have. This wisdom comes from lots of me and God time praying for healing, patience, strength, and wisdom. The Lord is faithful lord and has not forsaken us in this time of need. 

Well while I'm on here I can't help but brag about Kaleb's miracle, in which I am lucky to be apart of. As of recent Kaleb has most of his left leg back and his right leg is coming right along. After a recent Asia test is confirmed that more sensation and feeling has come back in his right leg. His back muscles have come back along with his trunk muscles. He is doing incredible in the NRN, which is a huge blessing in it of itself. He is practicing standing out of the harness and is doing very well as far as that goes. As far as that head of his goes, well he is just the same ol Kaleb that I fell in love with almost four years ago. 

Thank you all for your prayers, support, and love. And try to remember that yes we are called to consider trials joy. not because God is commanding it of you, but he knows it makes those trials so much easier. Plus he will only give you what you can handle! 

Brittany Marie