The worst blogger ever!

So I am pretty sure I have to be one of the worst bloggers in history. The fact  that I can go months and months without typing a single word proves just how completely awful I am at the whole entire thing. Believe me though it's not that I don't have any inspiration, I am marrying a miracle in five months! (That was my way of hinting just how close we are till the big day). It's just that I don't take the time to bust out a few paragraphs, and for that I am very sorry. 

So let's just review really fast what all has happened the past few months. Kaleb is walking with a walking, yep just let that sink in. Now he doesn't walk with it at home just yet, but that will happen as soon as his straight leg brace comes in. We feel extremely blessed to be working with a therapist who truly believes that walking is something he will do. She is going above and beyond to make sure that he is walking at the wedding. Something that I honestly was beginning to accept not happening. God has been just so amazing in healing Kaleb and yet showing us that our lives in the chair are not awful. We can still do everything we want to do, it just maybe a little different. 

We just experienced one of the worst moving experiences we could have ever had! We had inquired about these apartments in late October and was told that the unit we would be living in was handicap accessible, so we didn't think any more about it. Then came moving day... It was not at all accessible, he couldn't fit into the restroom at all!!! So after two days of completely praying and stressing and praying and stressing they finally moved us into a new apartment. Oh but don't worry there was still more stress to come, like the fact that they didn't want to accept our pay stubs as proof of our income, or the fact that we had to move more than half our stuff from the seventh floor to the fourth floor. And oh did I mention Kaleb is in a wheel chair. 

Well the point behind that entire story was for me to tell you that I was truly humbled after all of the chaos. I had no other choice than to trust God with all of my heart and to know that he will provide. It it so very easy to trust him with the huge stuff, like Kaleb's miracle, and yet with the smaller things sometimes I feel as though I could solve the problem faster. Day by day I am learning that God is in control of every situation and truly wants the best for us. 

Well that was my rant for the day, 

Brittany Marie    

A break for love

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NLT)

It just seems necessary that I open with these verses seeing that Kaleb proposed a week ago Saturday. It has been a long hard road filled with so many tears. This road started three and a half years ago on a world changers trip in San Diego. I met this dorky little boy and had no idea that he would forever change my life. A year later he followed his dream and went into the coast guard. We survived the eight week boot camp period with the only communication being letters. I still remember watching him graduate from bootcamp and feeling so proud of him for chasing his dreams and accomplishing them. He moved to New Orleans and I joined pi phi. Somewhere in that move I convinced myself that we were no longer meant to be together, so I selfishly ended it. For a year and a half we fought and cried and still told each other that we loved each other , while I tried very hard to tell god that there had to be someone else for me. Last July I flew into New Orleans after not seeing Kaleb for over a year, and I tried to have a horrible time. But let me tell you how hard it is to have a horrible time with your best friend. We laughed and giggled, we created so many more memories. And yet I still was trying to believe that he was meant to be with someone else. It wasn't until he flew into Albuquerque in August that I knew he was it for me! He is my best friend, and the love of my life. He is who god has for me.

I give the background because so many people know about the hard times. They know that I broke Kaleb's heart time and time again. And to those people all I can say is I am sorry. I made a ton of mistakes in that year and a half, but I can promise you I am so in love with him. People make mistakes, I just got really lucky and found a man who is willing to forgive me for the hurt I have caused him and willing to spend the rest of his life with me.

Our life hasn't been easy since we got back together. We are still facing a huge trial, and I am still not the perfect fiancé. But we are doing it! We our living our lives and still laughing our way through it. We our going to make it and live an amazing life, because god brought us together almost four years ago and is still working in us.

I ask that you continue to pray for healing for Kaleb, but also for our lives as we start them together. Pray that god moves in our courtship so that we have a great foundation starting our married life.