The worst blogger ever!

So I am pretty sure I have to be one of the worst bloggers in history. The fact  that I can go months and months without typing a single word proves just how completely awful I am at the whole entire thing. Believe me though it's not that I don't have any inspiration, I am marrying a miracle in five months! (That was my way of hinting just how close we are till the big day). It's just that I don't take the time to bust out a few paragraphs, and for that I am very sorry. 

So let's just review really fast what all has happened the past few months. Kaleb is walking with a walking, yep just let that sink in. Now he doesn't walk with it at home just yet, but that will happen as soon as his straight leg brace comes in. We feel extremely blessed to be working with a therapist who truly believes that walking is something he will do. She is going above and beyond to make sure that he is walking at the wedding. Something that I honestly was beginning to accept not happening. God has been just so amazing in healing Kaleb and yet showing us that our lives in the chair are not awful. We can still do everything we want to do, it just maybe a little different. 

We just experienced one of the worst moving experiences we could have ever had! We had inquired about these apartments in late October and was told that the unit we would be living in was handicap accessible, so we didn't think any more about it. Then came moving day... It was not at all accessible, he couldn't fit into the restroom at all!!! So after two days of completely praying and stressing and praying and stressing they finally moved us into a new apartment. Oh but don't worry there was still more stress to come, like the fact that they didn't want to accept our pay stubs as proof of our income, or the fact that we had to move more than half our stuff from the seventh floor to the fourth floor. And oh did I mention Kaleb is in a wheel chair. 

Well the point behind that entire story was for me to tell you that I was truly humbled after all of the chaos. I had no other choice than to trust God with all of my heart and to know that he will provide. It it so very easy to trust him with the huge stuff, like Kaleb's miracle, and yet with the smaller things sometimes I feel as though I could solve the problem faster. Day by day I am learning that God is in control of every situation and truly wants the best for us. 

Well that was my rant for the day, 

Brittany Marie    

Consider it pure joy...

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, (James 1:2 BOOKS)

This verse is a verse that I so often turned to in a time of need, and though I turned to it often it wasn't until recently that I grasped just a glimpse of what The Lord is saying here. Looking back on the past seven months of my life I could of handled it one of two ways, I could of become very angry at The Lord and at Kaleb. I could of lived my life in a deep depression choosing to not see the joy in the little things, which in turn would of very quickly hurt Kaleb's recovery. 

Or I could, and can, handle it in a state of joy. 

I truly am so very thankful for this situation, which to some of you may sound very very odd. I am thankful that it has brought Kaleb and I closer than we would of ever been without it. 

Because of this very injury we have had to completely readapt our lives, not necessarily a bad thing, but a thing. We had to humble ourselves, Kaleb obviously physically and mentally. But for me it was a bit of both as well, lets be honest people look at us a little different, we do things a little different, and we live a little different. Our lives are no worse or better than the people next door, they are just a little different. The best part of our lives being completely turned upside down is we were able to find our own right side up. 

I can also so I am incredible thankful for this injury and the wisdom it has brought. After facing an injury like this you learn to not forget about the little things in life. I can promise you Kaleb is looking forward to simple walking down the street again, and I am looking forward to holding his hand and taking twice as many steps to keep up with him. But besides learning that we shouldn't take the little things for granted I have so much more biblical wisdom. I can truthfully sit here and tell you that this wisdom comes from The Lord. This wisdom has been a gift which I am so incredibly blessed to have. This wisdom comes from lots of me and God time praying for healing, patience, strength, and wisdom. The Lord is faithful lord and has not forsaken us in this time of need. 

Well while I'm on here I can't help but brag about Kaleb's miracle, in which I am lucky to be apart of. As of recent Kaleb has most of his left leg back and his right leg is coming right along. After a recent Asia test is confirmed that more sensation and feeling has come back in his right leg. His back muscles have come back along with his trunk muscles. He is doing incredible in the NRN, which is a huge blessing in it of itself. He is practicing standing out of the harness and is doing very well as far as that goes. As far as that head of his goes, well he is just the same ol Kaleb that I fell in love with almost four years ago. 

Thank you all for your prayers, support, and love. And try to remember that yes we are called to consider trials joy. not because God is commanding it of you, but he knows it makes those trials so much easier. Plus he will only give you what you can handle! 

Brittany Marie 

Standing still, sprinting to the finish line

So much has happened since the last time I sat down and blogged. The biggest greatest thing to happen since November 10th happened a little less than a week ago. On January 7, 2013 I received the greatest phone call I could ever imagine. Kaleb called me shortly after I had left the hospital to tell me that he was able to controllable move his big toe on his left foot. Tears of joy streamed down my face as I thanked God for this incredible blessing! This small movement was exactly what we both needed. This movement showed us that God has prefect timing for everything and that when he is ready Kaleb will walk again.

Since the accident I can't help but feel like time has completely stood still. Yes, we have started a completely new year in a new city with a new plan, but for Kaleb and I both it is like the world has continued spinning while we live in this bubble at Craig hospital. And yet it is like we are in some marathon race to have him completely ready for discharge on January 30th. It is like whether we like it or not our lives are both standing still and yet spinning out if control at the same time.

I may not have any control over what is happening in our lives but I have a God who has a perfect plan who I know will provide. I know that Kaleb will walk, simple things like the increase spasms and the big toe movement remind me that God is completely in control! So I ask and beg that you continue to join me in praying for our lives; pray for guidance, strength, and healing for Kaleb's body! O know God hears the prayers of his children, and answers them.

God bless you,
Brittany Marie

Not the Christmas We Dreamed of

Well, today is December 26, which means yesterday was Christmas, it wasn't the Christmas we dreamed of but it was Christmas. This year our Christmas was supposed to be spent with my family back home in Albuquerque. We had been planning on this for months, and come to find out he had been planning on it for more than just Christmas. Well, do to the accident our Christmas was spent in Englewood, Colorado at Craig Hospital. It was anything but the Christmas we had planned on except for one very important thing, we were still able to spend it together. 

It was my very first Christmas ever without my family and lets just say I was a bit over emotional when I landed on Christmas Eve. I could not control the tears as they continued to flow all day and night. I wanted nothing more than to be home with my family singing "Silent Night" while my entire family somehow fits onto one pew. I wanted to be there when my "little" brother came into my room way to early in the morning to see if I would creep our presents with him. I wanted to be there when our family gathered to share an amazing meal together. I would have continued to be a dramatic over emotional mess on Christmas morning if it wasn't for the amazing man that I had decided to spend my Christmas with. 

I woke up Christmas morning and was completely prepared to cry and pout all Christmas Day, and I would have if it wasn't for Kaleb. From the second I walked into the hospital room I realized that though I plan on spending every other Christmas with my family I am so blessed that I will have him right there with me. It wasn't the Christmas I had dreamed of but Christmas with the Wilson's turned out to be perfect in its own little way. There was joyful chaos as presents were torn open, there was eating until we felt like we were going to burst, there was afternoon naps, and there was the love of family. We may not have been where we each wanted to be, but we were all with Kaleb which is where we each wanted to be. 




Yes, Kaleb and I's life is completely different from I would have ever imagined but one thing has not changed... the way we love each other. We have been able to sit on the couch together the last two nights and for those moments we are the exact same couple that we have been. We are weird and dorky but we are in love and at the end of the day that is all that matters. 

I know God has one incredible plan for us and I know God will either heal Kaleb or give us the strength to handle this new challenge. I ask that all of you continue to join us in prayer as this is still a very new injury. I know there is an amazing amount of power in prayer and so for that very reason I will never cease in praying for the love of my life. 

Have a very blessed night,
Brittany Marie

Just one step closer

Though I would never ever ask this to happen to someone else, I will admit that we are closer now than we have ever been. It has taught me to love him in a completely submissive way, while at the same time teaching him how to be served. It has showed me that no matter the challenges life may bring us, they are so much easier to face when I have him with me.

So though this isn't what I wanted I have loved every minute of it, and will continue to cherish every day together.

One life...

The amount of times that I have set next to Kaleb and asked "why us," has now become countless, but then he looks at me with those loving eyes and simply replies "because God knows we can handle it." This I know is true, I know God will not give us something that we cannot handle, and yet I will forever question why us. 

However the call I just received gave me a glimpse into the why us. The last person I ever thought would tell me he was praying for us just called and said that exact thing. My biological father told me that at church on Wednesday he sat and asked God to heal Kaleb. Now this is remarkable because for some odd reason he is not a fan of the amazing Kaleb Wilson. He said he realized that life isn't all about the fancy toys, the promotions, or the wild and crazy Saturday nights. But life is about the ones you love, and completely humbling yourself for God's will. These are words I never expected to hear out of him. 

So I guess for now the "why us" is that hopefully our testimony will bring at least one life closer to God.