An Inner Strenth

1 Peter 5:10
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Oh my goodness has it been a while since I actually took the time to sit down and write, which in some ways means life is going good. So let's see what has happened in the past few months that is worth sharing.... OH YA KALEB IS WALKING! Now just to clarify he is not walking around the house or walking on his own. Kaleb is walking with assistance from both a walker and a physical therapist, but that in itself is the most incredible blessing. It is something that I was becoming comfortable with the idea that it may never happen, and then with a ton of prayer and a ton of hard work and dedication on Kaleb's side he is working towards doing it again.

Now for the record, and since this is my own blog, let me tell you the past couple of months have not been the rainbows and butterflies that you may think. They have still been filled with tears and disappointments, frustration and some not so very nice words, but most of all a whole lot of love. Our lives are still very different from the paths that we both once thought they would take. There are still things that I personally have had to do for my soon to be husband that I never thought I would have to do. There have been multiple times that all I could do was call my wonderful blessing of a momma and cry to her because to be completely honest I am tired. It is a tired that is extremely hard to explain, it is a tired that is not only emotionally brought on but physically as well.  It is the kind of tired that only God can give the rest that is needed. And our gracious God has not forsaken me in this situation. Sometimes all it takes is a good cry and a few uplifting words from my momma and Kaleb to remember that the Lord has blessed me with an amazing amount of strength. If you would of told me a year ago that this would be what my life would look like I would have told you no way. I would have never expected to grow up and mature as fast as I have. I would have told you I am not strong enough to handle something this extreme, and that I am the biggest baby in the world. I would have tried to convince you that I need to be taken care of.

Now a year later, I have more spiritual strength than I ever have. My life is on a completely different plan than I ever thought possible. I live in a city that I am not a fan of. I haven't made it home to see my family in months. I missed that balloon fiesta for the first time in 21 years. I won't be home for Christmas Adam. But all of that aside I am marrying the man of my dreams. I am living a miracle. I am watching this miracle and knowing that so many people lives are being enriched because of it.

I am living the life that God has had planned for me.

sorry for the rant

Brittany Marie :)