But The Greatest Of These Is Love

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13 NIV)

When I was 18 I waltz my newly legal but into the tattoo parlor and sat down to get my second tattoo. I had chosen three of the most beautiful words in the English language, words that were part of the love chapter. These words were absolutely beautiful to me at the time, they reminded me of our Heavenly Father's promise to us. These words were "Faith, Hope, and Love", words that many others have tattooed on their bodies. 

Now four years later I sometimes get a glimpse of these words forever inscribed on my body and they mean so so much more. I look back over the past year of my life and realize without those three words this trial would have been unbearable. These words are how we make it through ever day. Every time I look back over the last year and begin to feel sorry for us and for our lives I am consumed with hope for the future. I know The Lord has a wonderful plan for our future and that his goal is to use this for his glory. The amount of faith we have to have to get through this is amazing, and when my faith begins to waver I know that The Lord will grant me with faith to move mountains. 

But at the end of the day the greatest of these remains, and that is love. Our love today is stronger than it has ever been, and I have God to thank for that. When you're faced with the worse you can either face it alone, or fight it together. I didn't have to choose this life, but I can't imagine leaving this life. I would much rather spend my life with faith, hope, and mostly love, rather than taking the easy road out. 

With love,

Brittany Marie 

Scatter brained

Well we we are home, actually we have been home for a little over a month. It has been an adventure with so so much to share so this post may seem completely scatter brained, but try to follow along!

So lets go all the way back to January 30th, the day we got discharged. That day was filled with more emotion than I will ever be able to explain. It was filled with tears of joy and sobs of sadness and frustration. I wanted so badly to leave every part of the hospital back at the hospital, I quickly realized that day that our journey was just beginning. Many of the things that overtook our room at the hospital are in this very apartment because Kaleb needs them to continue to gain strength. As much as we both wanted for him to be completely healed when we left the hospital that just wasn't what God had planned for us. So after an exhausting day of trying to make my new home feel more like a home and less like. hospital I was exhausted. I felt as though I had the biggest weight in the world resting on my chest and at any moment my chest was going to give way and the world was just going to come down. It never fails though that when I think God has forgotten all about us he shows me that he truly is in control of this situation. At about ten at night Kaleb called me in to show me controllable kicking his leg! It was just what I needed to remember God is much bigger than my emotions!

Since that night God has continued to show me that he is in the business of miracles, they just happen in his time and not mine. Kaleb will be able to walk with the strength of his left leg. I still believe however that he will walk again! I believe God is working miracles and that he is using Kaleb to reach so many people. The amount of people that have written me on a social media and tell me they are praying for us is truly amazing. The fact that the young GAs are so intrigued with what God is doing with Kaleb reminds me that everything will bring The Lord glory.

There are so many days where I feel as though I am walking a thin line between a nurse and a girlfriend. There are days that I want to sit down and just yell at God for giving me this trial. I wonder why me so very often, and then I think about Moses who asked God why him. He even told God that there were others more equipped and yet God answered every question showing him why he was fit for the job and how The Lord would fill the gals he thought he had. I so often why me but then The Lord gives me the strength or other gifts to make it through this challenge.

So for now I will listen to psalm 13...

How long, Lord ? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord ’s praise, for he has been good to me. (Psalm 13:1-6 NIV)

In this one chapter David's heart went from heavy and filled with sorrow, to rejoicing. He says that he will sing in The Lord's praise because he has been good to me. That is one thing I need to cherish close to my heart, that no matter how hard it seems to be The Lord has blessed me beyond all means. I will continue to wait upon The Lord and his awesome and mighty healing powers.

Thank you for your love and prayers,

Brittany Marie

Its a "See You Later", not a "Goodbye"

As we sit here tonight embracing the fact that tonight is our last night as patients' of Craig Hospital I can't help but shed a tear or two. Thinking back to our first day here, November 19, I can't help but recall the fear I felt. It was the beginning of an adventure that I was terrified to be apart of. From the moment we arrived the future was right in our face. The second we pulled up there were people seating on the sky bridge, in at that point in time the dreaded wheelchairs. As the days continued the adjustments started coming in waves. Our lives were changing and they were changing fast. Kaleb quickly grabbed ahold of each and every trial that was put in front of him and defeated them.

One phrase I so often caught myself using during our stay here at Craig's was "I am to little". Today once again I took something that I thought I was at one point to little to do and proved myself wrong. Which seems to be the theme while we have been here at Craig. So often do we think we cannot do something and within a matter of time we have figured out our own way of doing it. 

Our life will not be easy, and will be filled with so many challenges. But in reality no ones life is easy, everyone's lives are filled with some sort of challenge. It truly is all about who's hand you are holding while going through it. I have been blessed with being able to hold Kaleb's hand while we adjust our lives and enjoy every minute of it. 

So tonight we wrap up one chapter of our life. Tonight we say "see you later" to so many members of Craig's hospital. Tonight I sit here and cry. I cry because I see how many of these people have become attached to my amazing boyfriend. I watched as his PT therapist had such a hard time saying goodbye. He has truly enjoyed watching how much amazing progress Kaleb has made, and wishes so very much that he was able to continue Kaleb's recovery. 

I know that Kaleb is going to continue to wow us all with his amazing recovery! Please continue to pray for his healing and strength! Though this is the end of our journey as in patients at Craig's, this is still a very hard adjustment and we still need your prayers. I for one still 100% believe that God will heal Kaleb! I know God has some amazing plans for him and I feel blessed to be apart of it, and so should all of you. 

Goodnight and God Bless,
Brittany Marie

Not the Christmas We Dreamed of

Well, today is December 26, which means yesterday was Christmas, it wasn't the Christmas we dreamed of but it was Christmas. This year our Christmas was supposed to be spent with my family back home in Albuquerque. We had been planning on this for months, and come to find out he had been planning on it for more than just Christmas. Well, do to the accident our Christmas was spent in Englewood, Colorado at Craig Hospital. It was anything but the Christmas we had planned on except for one very important thing, we were still able to spend it together. 

It was my very first Christmas ever without my family and lets just say I was a bit over emotional when I landed on Christmas Eve. I could not control the tears as they continued to flow all day and night. I wanted nothing more than to be home with my family singing "Silent Night" while my entire family somehow fits onto one pew. I wanted to be there when my "little" brother came into my room way to early in the morning to see if I would creep our presents with him. I wanted to be there when our family gathered to share an amazing meal together. I would have continued to be a dramatic over emotional mess on Christmas morning if it wasn't for the amazing man that I had decided to spend my Christmas with. 

I woke up Christmas morning and was completely prepared to cry and pout all Christmas Day, and I would have if it wasn't for Kaleb. From the second I walked into the hospital room I realized that though I plan on spending every other Christmas with my family I am so blessed that I will have him right there with me. It wasn't the Christmas I had dreamed of but Christmas with the Wilson's turned out to be perfect in its own little way. There was joyful chaos as presents were torn open, there was eating until we felt like we were going to burst, there was afternoon naps, and there was the love of family. We may not have been where we each wanted to be, but we were all with Kaleb which is where we each wanted to be. 




Yes, Kaleb and I's life is completely different from I would have ever imagined but one thing has not changed... the way we love each other. We have been able to sit on the couch together the last two nights and for those moments we are the exact same couple that we have been. We are weird and dorky but we are in love and at the end of the day that is all that matters. 

I know God has one incredible plan for us and I know God will either heal Kaleb or give us the strength to handle this new challenge. I ask that all of you continue to join us in prayer as this is still a very new injury. I know there is an amazing amount of power in prayer and so for that very reason I will never cease in praying for the love of my life. 

Have a very blessed night,
Brittany Marie